Our toddler's tantrums

Irfan & I didn't have any idea what was wrong with our son last night. Initially he was ok from ayah's house. Maybe sleepy already so that's why he wouldn't want to go home. Wanted to finish his milk there but my hubby still carried him & we took the cab home. Then, he slept very soundly, so we thought oklah, at least we could have sometime together without the little one disturbing.

While I was planning what to write for my proforma (the whole thing makes me so stressed now!) while Irfan was watching soccer on the cable, alih-alih Fikri menangis. So, ok I changed his diapers and tugged him to sleep again. Tak sampai beberapa minit, dia menangis lagi. This time round makin kuat & craving for our attention. Ok, nak susu. Lepas tu nangis lagi, this time I dah nak masuk tido tapi he was still crying so loudly. Susu sudah, tukar diapers sudah, so what's wrong? Took minyak telon gosok perut dia, mungkin kembung. True enuff, it's kembung. Tapi bila I nak urut pelipat kaki dia, he kept kicking me. Ni yang I buat naik radang.

Irfan pun sebenanrnya dah nak tido tapi kecik ni buat hal lagi. So to cut the whole night story short, we woke up almost every hour trying to pacify him tapi makin dipujuk, makin teruk nangis dia. I tried to sleep beside him pun tak jalan. Put him on our mattress, sama jugak. At one time pukul 2 pagi, lepas dia minum susu, Irfan dukung dia coz he was already coughing. Tak sempat nak ke toilet, depan master bedroom, dia muntahkan semua. Apa lagi, ayah dia dah bingitlah! I pun seram tengok muka Irfan tadi. He tried to control his anger, anyway after all Fikri's still our son & it's not his fault that all this happened.

I pun jadi Cinderella pagi-pagi buta. Didn't really have a good night sleep as once in a while dia merengek lagi. Tak tahu apa silapnya. I guess Irfan must have been scolding me for not allowing Fikri to overnite rumah Ayah. Ayah pelawa suruh Fikri tido sana sudah coz this morning nak kene hantar dia lagi but hey, it's the mother-son bonding ok. I just couldn't describe my feelings but I tak sangggup nak berjauhan dengan Fikri lama-lama. Imagine if I were to leave him there last nite and I'll be able to meet my son only after work today, how many hours that I wont be seeing him? I don't have the heart to leave my son like that. Biarlah I tak cukup tido asalkan I'm with him. My hubby mana tahu perasaan seorang ibu! Kita yang mengandungkan dia, jaga dia siang malam masa kecik (yes, day & night!tho my mum was there to help around but I was the one feeding him all the time, even in the night).

Anyway,hopefully my son's better now kat rumah Ayah. At least they have Husna, Ibu & Ayah to take turns taking care of him. I just wish he's with me right now. I wanna stay home wih my son. All the time...