Any1 reads my blog?

Okay, things have been a lil' better now.
Nah...don't need to know the details, very personal.

Anyway, I wonder apart from the people that I told, who else read my plain, black blog? Ada ke manusia-manusia yang interested to know what's going on in my life? Well, I suppose some people are just being kaypoh & busybody or they just have all the time in the world to curi-tulang while at work to read other people's blogs, I guess.But I don't care or bother that much abt who reads or who don't. All I care is that I have a place to let out my feelings, frustrations, share my joy & just an avenue to pour it all out.

Having a diary now is a hassle (don't bother to carry a thick book wherever I go) and anyway, I think my handwriting dah semakin koyak. I think I'd take more than 2-3 pages for each entry (unless I have an A4-size diary or encyclopedia-size that can fit everything on a page). Also I don't have the time at home anymore, thus having to 'curi' just sometime (yes, I know I'm guilty too) during my free periods or before school (like what I'm doing now) is so much better. It's just that blogging is made public to anyone who stumbles over or you purposely give your blog addy to people to let them know what you're writing. Of course it could be dangerous sometimes coz you're also telling others abt your vulnerabilities and weaknesses. Not yours alone, but also people that you talked abt.

But well, that's life isn't it? Everyone's not perfect.I have my strengths and my weaknesses too. I do have problems and dilemmas. I have my aspirations, dreams and wishes... and so does everyone else (except those yang dah masuk kat Hougang Chalet & dah tertanam 6 feet under) I think this also helps in letting people know yourself better (somehow), know what you feel (which sometimes are very difficult to say verbally coz you're tied with emotions).

Yesterday, at least 3/4 of the burden I felt in my heart went away after having a good heart-to-heart talk with hubby. Well, that's what encompasses a marriage, isn't it? Communication. Sometimes we keep everything to ourselves too long & when it explodes, it's worst than a tsunami. But the Truth is very painful. Yes, it heals but the scar is still there. Why 3/4? Hmmm...I believe that there's more that I should hear but wasn't said. Something was kept unaddressed (which I think) was purposely avoided. Biarlah. Lambat-laun, yang kabur akan menjadi jelas juga. The Truth will eventually shows itself. All I know is that I have my conscience clear. Abt him, not too sure...

I'm trying my very best to change. Change for the better, for the sake of our family. But change needs time...and that's what I need too, if Allah panjangkan usiaku. Amin.