the 'Merlion'

It's been 1 month now since my last post? well, that shows how occupied I was during the past few weeks. Too much to say till i don't know where to start.

Ok, just to update abt the little one who's on the way. I'm almost 12 weeks now. Tummy is already buldging and sleeping gets uncomfortable at times. But that's really nothing compared to the endless and donno-when-it'll-end nausea & vomiting that I'm experiencing till now. This 2nd one is so much different when I had Fikri. When I had Fikri, by 10 weeks my appetite starts to crave for all kinds of food but this one, just thinking about food and forcing myself to eat is already a burden. Needless to say right after every meal (without fail), just less than 5 minutes after last suap, I would be running to the nearest toilet to throw up everything that I just had. It's just like the bulimic symptom, something like thatlah. None of the food that I ate was digested coz I can see the food coming out again; rice, noodle, curry, bandung...name it, you'll see it! DUH!

Some of my colleagues called me a 'merlion', instead of gushing out water, I gushed out everything that I just ate. This time I don't know when it'll come to an end, hopefully soon coz I'm loosing weight (and that's not good news when you're pregnant, instead you should be putting on more weight). Some of my frens also asked if I've been loosing the kilos. Yup, I was 50kg before puasa, then during the chicken pox and flu week, I lost 3 kg, now i'm still losing some more - now 46kg! I'm almost back to my orginal weight before I had Fikri. Of course I'm happy but worried at the same time coz I'm afraid that my baby is not having enuf nutrients that it should have.

Towards the end of this year, my record in school has been a suicidal plunge down from a tall cliff. Starting from the 2 weeks of getting chicken pox, my medical leave has been continuing since then. Never in my entire life I took so many days of medical leave. Continued for another week due to my nausea & giddiness. Then, I came back during the last week & 1st week of the holiday for the staff retreat, dept meetings & stock taking, then had 2 days of DI course at TNPS. I guess I tire myself too much that week esp during the wkends when I catch PGL with my cuzens, went out to have supper with them at JB till 3 am. In addition to that, on Sun, hubby's aunts, uncles and cuzens came over to celebrate a very belated-raya, so everything adds on to the pressure. At last, my body gave way.

I was down with flu again on Mon. Went to sch for review with Puspaja, then asked for permission to leave. Since Ibu wanted to go Bedok & meet Dr Yap, I followed her as well. Dr Yap gave the same advise & warning to me....must have lots of rest at home, do your work from home, don't tire & stress yourself too much. She forced me to rest & gave me another 5 days of mc. Wallau! I'm glad of course but at the back of my mind, I'm in trouble....I owe a lot of people, a lot of things...which I don't know if I could get them done on time.

Tried to work from home now. Last 2 days slept over at Abah's house. Then smlm came back Pasir Ris. Now still trying to get things done for people that I owe. Everyone's been telling me, health first...don't think about work. But on the other hand, they are the one's chasing me for the work...how to rest???

I'm very stressed......